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so i carried Bulbasaur in my Pocket today! he kept me company and everything. :3
- bionic808
last night i went to bed as per normal no changes from usual until about 3am in the morning and my skin is burning. i get out and lather myself completely in moisturizer and eventually get to sleep at 7am. i awake to get ready for work two hours later and once i get outside my body freezes up completely. i call my Team Leader and got no response so left her a lengthy and awkward voice-message of me breathing heavily and panting due to the incredible amount of pain my psoriasis is causing me. went back to bed, woke up two hours later, ate tomato soup and now here i am listening to Zebra Katz new mixtape and trying to relax. atleast two Teefury Shirts came in the mail today. sigh.. fucking skin issues
-bionic808
I Was A Fool
Tegan and Sara
Do you remember I searched you out?
How I climbed your city’s walls
Do you remember me as devout?
How I prayed for your calls
I stood still
It’s what I did
Love like ours just never fits…I was a fool for love…
Annie always plays with my Ice King Plushie. So here’s a babe’in pic of them!
you know when you hit that place mentally where you just find clarity in the simplest things in life ?
The New Daft Punk + Dillinger Escape Plan Albums, Eurovision, Ice Cream, Cupcakes and my new Treatment have placed me here and i am feeling optimistic. Jumping from emotion to emotion in extremes is natural for me (bipolar ick) and i fall into self destructive habits that i hide. it’s uplifting things that keep my mind at ease where i feel my happiest these last few years. a new video game, album, comic,etc. usually i do get told alot that these are ‘cosmetic’ things that keep me happy for so long and to be honest that is true. but atleast its something that’s healthy and doesn’t harm me in the long run. im not sitting around questioning things and completely doubting everything and act completely like a nutcase ( eh.. im that too you know? )
it’s when im in this space mentally where i can create the art i desire to create.. design and stitch the dresses, shirts, accessories and everything that comes to mind. so far i have designed 4 different and cohesive ‘Lumberjack Couture’ pieces i plan to be making these coming weeks for myself as Winter is just around the corner here in Melbourne.
keep rolling on the good vibes’
- bionic808
months later..
i can’t turn off this switch.
sigh
i just want to be over this or resolve it. i know you’ll read this and continue to not give a fuck after everything i have done for you.
im sorry readers. its been such a long day and im just insanely emotional. sigh
this constant yearning..
needs to fucking stop.
my skin
is on fucking fire.
